Secret’s From My Journal

August 27- Training Camp. Georgia We are on our second day of camp. After a terrible night of sleep and my first time sleeping outside, EVER. I am tired, sore and dirty. All summer I have felt so ready for this trip, but now… I’m wondering what I have gotten myself into. I don’t sleep in sleeping bags! I don’t sleep outside! I don’t go a day without looking in the mirror. Jesus, let me know your love in ways I’ve never imagined. Let me feel your love wrap around me. God, the love you had for me in the States will be just as powerful as the love you have for...

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New… Again, and Again, and Again

The other day God gave me an incredible revelation: Just because you are struggling today with something you struggled with one year ago does not mean you are taking steps backwards. It means He is making you new… again. He is always making you new. You were new a year ago. You were new six months ago. You were new last month. And yesterday. And now you are new today. God always has something more for us. A deeper intimacy. A greater mercy. Bigger eyes to see. More words to speak. God takes us to places where He knows we will be stretched and where He knows we will grow. Shouldn't...

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Take a Step

I have taken many steps in my life. More than anyone can count. The most important steps in my life though have taken place most recently. I have taken a step to believe in God. I took another step. This step was a bit bigger. I answered His call to apply for this trip. The next step I took was second nature and that was saying yes to fully commit to raising money, packing up everything for two months, and fly to Africa with complete strangers. Every step that I have taken have led me here. AFRICA! Kenya to be exact. This step has changed all my future steps. If God wants me to do something...

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Sheep Amidst The Wolves

Something smells. As I sit here on a rickety metal bed, trying to think of what to write a blog about, I realise it is my shirt that smells, my shirt that I have been wearing since Saturday. Our laundry has been out since Monday, so I am a bit short on clothes to wear. But smells nor laundry are the reason I am writing. Kijabe leaves me, at times, wrestling with myself over what to do for ministry, or, whether what I have been doing as ministry has really been a ministry at all. It can be discouraging at times, to think "Was any of that really ministry? What difference did it...

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Boring Love

             A few weeks ago, my team and I were out doing door to door evangelism in a Kenyan town called Nkubu.  One morning, we came to the house of a man named Joseph.  We soon learned that Joseph believed himself to be a prophet and was believing a lot of spiritual lies.  To be honest, when we first foudn out about Joseph, I was excited.   I was ready to go to war and to see my God win.  And so we talked/debated with Joseph for awhile and prayed for him and left.  No big spiritual show.             ...

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So Long Self, I’m Free to be Me

Fear. This was the ruler of my life. Fear of rejection, fear of abandonment, fear of making mistakes. For many years I was afraid of people. My fears turned to shyness and shyness resulted in appearing like a snob. And so, not many people know the real me because I did not let them. Then summer of 2010, God placed me on a mission trip to the Dominican Republic that clearly changed my life's path. Scared out of my mind, I went on a one week mission trip with a group of 58 people I did not know. This was way out of my comfort zone, as never felt comfortable around people unless I had at...

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