“What in the world have I gotten myself into?”
We flew into Nairobi Airport at 8:00pm on August the 31st.
After carrying around all of my belongings on my back around the Nairobi airport, we got loaded up into our contact's vans and headed into the unknown.
After driving around in the dark for a while with hardly any lights guiding us along, we stopped at a 24 hour store.
At this point, I'm not even sure what I'm even doing here. I'm sick, tired, and just want to lay down.
We climb back into our vans and begin the hour and a half drive to our new home. Well, our temporary home for 2 weeks.
As we're driving, all I can think is,
“What in the world have I gotten myself into?”
“Why am I here?”
“What am I doing?”
I was scared.
I was scared about what we'd be doing. I was scared about what life would look like. I was scared of the unknown.
A little while later we pull off the road onto a large muddy area in front of a big building surrounded by a huge wall and a large gate. The Highway Motel.
“What in the world have I gotten myself into?”
“Why am I here?”
“What am I doing?”
We unload and begin the process of checking into our rooms. We climbed up three flights of stairs and get into our room.
The floor was soaking wet and slippery. Our rooms had a bed, a table, a chair, and a light. Oh, and the walls are sticky.
“What in the world have I gotten myself into?”
“Why am I here?”
“What am I doing?”
We took some time to pray and thank God for getting us safely to Africa.
And we were free to go to bed.
I was completely overwhelmed. It was so dark and scary. It wasn't what I expected. It wasn't what I wanted.
The rest of the night all I could think was,
“What in the world have I gotten myself into?”
“Why am I here?”
“What am I doing?”
Over and over in my head until I fell asleep.
~
Waking up in Africa was completely different.
We woke up and climbed up onto the roof of our motel. The view from it is spectacular.
There is so much beauty all around.
And all I can think is,
“This isn't for me.”
“I'm so blessed.”
“God called me here for a reason.”
Gorgeous mountains surrounding the city.
A landscape that looks like the Lion King.
Beautiful children whose smiles melt your heart.
“This isn't for me.”
“I'm so blessed”
“God called me here for a reason.”
I spent my first day in Africa playing with children, walking around the town, taking in the scenery, and learning about all the ministry we'd be doing.
I have never been so excited for something in my life.
We'll be doing discipleship with older kids who cannot afford to go to school.
This is so far out of my comfort zone but I know
“This isn't for me.”
“I'm so blessed”
“God called me here for a reason.”
My first night here I was ready to hop back onto a plane and go home.
The darkness was overwhelming.
But as soon as the sun came up and there was a little light, everything changed.
We are called to be a light.
That's why I'm here.
Because a little bit of light can change everything.
