In Matthew 18 God talks about the faith of a child, i thought i knew what that meet until two nights ago. my perspective on a child like faith has been shaken up and poured out. Two nights ago during worship the spirit rocked my inner soul to the core, it wasnt until afterwards i had to reasure myself that what i felt was real. I thought to myself…why would i ever have to reasure myself, that is beyond selfish and insucure. All of a sudden i understood Matthew 18, its not how we worship or how we love God that needs to be like a child, its our certainty of our feelings that need to be child-like. Having a brand new understanding to something i have read over and over and over has opened up a door i never took notice to before. Its funny how when we getted wrapped up in something so beautiful we almost become mad at ourselves for never noticing its beauty before, like this new door i have discovered, if its this stunning from the outside than i cant wait to peek inside.
God has been doing a lot of work within me on forgivness and love. i have never had much of a problem forgiving others, but forgiving myself is a task i have always found unreachable. I am so thankful i am here so that God can shake me up and stir up all the unforgiving stains i found on my heart. i have gotten a revelation from God that the key to this door i have found is in His hands, and i have some more growth to undergo before He will give it to me.
I WANT THE KEY….so i am asking for your prayers
