Tuesday September 10, 2013
God has brought me here to experience intimacy with me. I am here because He wants to know me more deeply and wants me to know Him more deeply. The Lord just wants us to be content wherever we are in His Presence and to love, knowing that He has us wherever we are for a reason.
This past summer I struggled with being content because of all of the preparations and excitement for Africa. Now that I am actually in Africa I struggle with being content and not missing home. The Lord has been trying to tell me it is not about where I am or who I am with, but that I am content in Him and focused on His Presence here and now.
He is teaching me so much about trust. I am learning to actually intrust my family and friends to Him. I cannot check in on everyone anytime I would life and He is showing me He has called me here and He has my family and friends in His hands. Why would I ever think I could take care of them or that they need me at home more than they need Him? Oh Lord please forgive my foolishness!
Since being in Maai Mahiu the Lord has shown me how much this life is not my own. Being here is all a matter of saying yes to the Lord every moment of everyday. It is about saying yes to being uncomfortable, yes to missing friends and family, yes to whatever food and living conditions are in front of me, yes to being covered in dirt, yes to everything unfamiliar and unknown. But these are such small things compared to the yes I am trying to say each moment to a wide open heart and mind, yes to complete surrender, yes to complete trust, yes to stop clinging to this life, yes to being fully His, yes to full dependence, yes to being overwhelmed and overflowing with His love, joy, and Presence. It is my prayer that each moment out of His strength and guidance I can do this.
The ministry we have been doing has mostly been a VBS with local boys who cannot afford school and working on a building our contacts have where we will be staying and moving into soon. This is where a discipleship ministry will hopefully soon take place everyday. Each day consists of trying to pour into and love all of the people around us- from the sweet, overwhelming amount of little kids that follow us everywhere, to the high school aged boys, to the women who taught us how to cook.
It is all about forming relationships and loving whoever the Lord puts in front of us. Please pray that we may do this each moment! God is the same God here as He is in the U.S. and He wants to experience intimacy with us wherever we are! My prayer is that all of you beautiful people, sons and daughters of the Most High God, know and experience that intimacy with our Savior today, wherever in the world you may be.
