“Everyday there's a thousands things that some how pass us by
that cut through the noise so you can know what love sounds like
I’m gonna tune your frequency to 106.1 point me so there’s no distraction
Take a breath take it in love has no expiration date
my heart will always be for you at a constant rate
It will outlast anything you thought was set in stone it goes
on and on and on and on and on
Can you feel my love loud and clear,
it pulls you near ”
— Natasha Bedingfield
I used to live a life that was fast paced and every moment of everyday needed to be planned. Everything needed to have purpose and I needed to know WHY. I'm pretty sure my family can testify to the fact that every question or situation needed to have a why at the end, it never failed. Even as I came on this trip I wanted to know why. Why would God send me to Africa? Why did he want me to give up everything to come here? Why did I need to change? WHY?!? It was a never ending cycle that I was okay with. I was okay with questioning everything, and ultimately questioning every move God made with me.
With that I would let life pass me by… I would let blessings of this world slip through my hands, I lived a life of regret. I lived with my mind being formed around why ME, why NOW, why did this happen… I let my world be consumed with me, me, me, me, me… And always looked back. I never could just live in the moment and be okay, I had to look ahead and question everything. I thought that my plan was the best clearly, I thought God was just here to kinda of guide me when I needed him. You know, just question GOD of all people. Smart move huh, Breanne?!? And just ask me how that has gone thus far… 🙂
Good thing is, God's love NEVER expires… Awesome thing is, that God called my name yet again above the rest to bring me to Africa to realize how special I am. Even better thing is that God asked me to stop asking WHY, for I need to trust him. God has a neon sign with my name blinking in his arms to get my attention…. He has called me here to step out of my world and love people who believe they are unlovable. He has called me here to tune in to him, and believe in a God that has know my purpose from the begging. No questions asked…. Asking why, gets me to know where. Better question is WHY NOT. Why not come here, why not want to be changed for the better. Why not want to become more like Christ and follow him. WHY NOT, learn how to fall in love with a man who is calling my name, who is asking ME why. Asking ME why not love him and just do as he says…. He is simply asking me to slow down and enjoy the page he has me on. To take a breath and just breath him in. To stop asking so many dang question and just trust in his mighty plans.
Yea. God is NOT playing around! He loves me to much to keep me the same, and loves me too much to let me stay in my cycle. For he sees a precious child with potential, with HIS potential just screaming to be let loose and not sitting around in bondage asking questions… Hmmm, God is a good God. He loves ME, the new me living for today, and just taking it all in!!!!
